Then there are the albums of past. I am also proud of those layouts - even though some can cause me to wince "What was I thinking!?!". But those papers are pretty too and there is technique in the layouts as well. And even those pages there is heft; though not as much and those pages are not as fun to turn. But these albums make me melancholy. These photos and stories, while bringing a smile to my face, makes me realize that my babies have grown and I shall never be with those little people again. They are different people not only in size, but in personality and attitude. And while I love these new persons more than life itself, and they are the ones give each day a reason to rise and purpose of smile, I miss those small selves so very much. Thank goodness I have those albums and may revisit those little ones who make my heart sing. Thank goodness I have those albums as much for the sadness as for the gladness.
So these albums that I regularly go through are a mixture of emotion. Like me, they are rather bi-polar. But one thing stands out... I am very proud of all I have created as part of this craft. How lucky am I to be a scrapbooker?! How fortunate am I to have found a vocation that allows me to mix my favorite things with memories to create items that provide me such diverse emotion each time I look at them?! How blessed am I to have "met" so many people that understand the sentiment and pride that looking at my own work brings?!
It is this reason that I revisit the sites, classes and blogs that bring me in touch with these companions; though not as often as I would like. I am sharing my computer with my granddaughter these days so if I don't have something specific to do, I may only get to use it myself for a few minutes here and there. But don't think it's just the computer where I suffer: it takes me an entire day to complete just one layout - even on those days when I have absolutely nothing else to do. I have been down as much as up the past few months. I hope it's just a temporary condition, that it's the MS that will eventually go into remission. I so hope that I get back in the swing of things soon... I know I am missing so very much.
I have completed five layouts in the past two weeks while trying to participate in a retaking of the Scrapbook Remix class. Since I showed the first two last week, here are the next three: